Eerie how the hands were placed around me as if I was some kind of toy. I felt used and
manipulated. I was out of control, with my hands
tied behind my back and
legs tied together at the ankles. I had to let him
touch me,
feel my
flesh as if it were his own.
I was forced to let him do anything he wanted to me, and he did. I was
beaten, and
caged, like
an animal.
At night he let me watch
the news, watch
my parents cry and beg to let me out. He forced me into
submission, and forced everything around me to become what I
hated. I was being shown my biggest
fear. Why?
Was this some dream relating to my experiences using
females myself?
Was I realizing that I had been the guy
torturing girls in my own relationships?
Was I just having a
nightmare?
Will I ever know?
I guess
I realized something tonight. At least I have that.