It came to me but a second ago. I was reading through the works of one of my
heros. He used to work in the
technology world, now here runs a
dance club -- you know the guy. When I first got my start in the
IT world, I idolized him; just the coolest guy in the world. But, over the past few years and even minutes, I've realised something; I
Don't want to be like him anymore. He has become
bitter.
Angry.
Resentful. That might be great for my
Idol, but that's not the same for me.
Respect is a separate thing.
I've justified myself through my icons for quite a long time. Striving to be one in some grand future. But I now understand that an icon is just someone waiting for an iconoclast. There is more to life than sycophants.... and there is a hell of a lot more to existance than being one. The ability to be unique is a gift that, without it, we are all the same person -- unchanged. And Repition is the death of the soul.