I didn't want anything for Christmas
Well, that's what I said
, at least. I would have enjoyed getting a few books
, or maybe a new beard trimmer
, but I wasn't thinking of those things when my parents (the only people I figured I'd get presents from this year), asked me what I wanted.
"Maybe a coffee maker
," I said. "Actually, on second thought, I don't think I even have any place in my kitchen
where I could put one, so I don't know, anything."
So christmas morning, I got through some very decent gifts of fine clothing, to the last box. It was big, and I knew it was a coffee maker.
I tried to hide the look of disappointment on my face from my family. It wasn't that I don't want
a coffee-maker, I just don't feel like I need
one. I usually don't have time to get up and make coffee before I go to work, and there's already one at the office which spews out some of the most nasty brew I've ever drank. I rarely have the time or the inclination to brew a pot
at home (much less clean the pot), and I'm the only person in the house who drinks it.
I realized I should have been more assertive in telling my mom that the wish for a coffee maker was a mistake. "DON'T get me a coffee maker
," I should have said. "I already have more than what I need
, and I don't know where to put it all...don't weigh me down with more stuff
It's not that I'm not grateful
to them for getting me something I said I wanted. It's not that I don't appreciate
a generous gift. I've never taken back a gift someone gave me, but now I'm wondering whether to make an exception. If I take this coffee maker out of its box, It's going to be used only occasionally, but will constantly be additional clutter in my kitchen. If I don't take it out of the box, I'll still have to put it somewhere (prolly the attic or garage), and I'll wonder what the point of having gotten it was. A few years from now, I may buy a house with more room, and I can use it then, but it seems silly to be carrying around a superfluous coffee maker until then. After all, in the 8 years I've been drinking coffee regularly, I've never owned a coffee maker, and I've done fine for myself.
I'm not disappointed
that I got a coffee maker when I really wanted something else. Sure a few interesting books or a new beard trimmer might have been nice, but I hardly NEED those, either. I'm really disappointed by myself. That I made myself such a hard person to shop for
, only to have someone give me something that actually does more to inconvenience me than anything else. That I didn't just tell my parents to take whatever they were going to use to buy me presents this year and give some durable shoes
to people who don't have any.
, Mom and Dad. I love you, but I hate this coffee maker.