Horrible dream

As I sit here and write all the things in my head,
I feel so desperate, I want to be dead.
My family says they love me, so I thought,
But I sit here and say how I hate them a lot!
I sit here and watch my life go by,
Soon I will find, it all was a lie.
I hold the gun closer, it touches my head,
My face becomes sweaty, and slightly red.
My hand tightens suddenly around the gun,
Just pull the trigger and I'll be done.
I start getting shaky, I shut my eyes,
I pull back the trigger, but to my surprise...........

............My mother starts shaking me, I look up at her face,
"What a horrible dream in a horrible place!"