I'm hunched over the sink, washing
piss
stink out with
hand soap
I'm not supposed to do this
I do still have
toothpaste, but often forget
sleeping pills,
crackers are dinner
what do I do with the mini
jelly jars
mom sent, without
peanut butter or bread?
and if I get sick
if I lose this room to roaches
stop the black, my shadowed eyes
stop it all
cut the cord that feed me
my eyes get wet but it's not crying
just shaking the lubricant
that tries to make me human
I'm no bum
but I go hungry
I go hungry
hungry
for a clean chance
clean clothes that haven't
been someone else's
I have to get out