It is funny
R says that I should not
associate with J
leave the wrong
impression
everyone watches
judges in a small town
I am committed
to J
J wants more
pushes
I can't tell
if J thinks
I'm joking
or just
is pushing me
past my limits
I don't know
but it is funny
because J and R
are alike
passionate
idealistic
madmen
ethical
committed
R does money
J does improv
yet alike
and R is the joker
and J is the taskmaster
and everyone
is not
what they seem
and my reputation
is shards
anyhow
in the surf
my X
told all
that I wasn't
putting out
before
we were X
one
in the surf
was my office manager's
daughter
and my office manager
asked me
next day
couldn't
I control
the X
I
laughed
someday
I want to bring
J to R
or
R to J
and watch
them
circle
like cats
antipathy
or recognize
the heart
that stands open
which is why
I love them both