It is easy with you
All the places you've been offended
Where you haven't been treated right
A bike shop
Food co-op
Coffee shops
Restaurants
It's easy to hide my physical body
Where you can't find me
But what of my mind and heart
You always feel it when I go
I go to the Beloved
I give up
I cast myself into the abyss
Grief, denial, loss, bargaining, abandonment, hopeless grief
I throw myself over the cliff
Over and over
I resist
And then let go
It's not wings
Because the cliff is a waterfall
I don't want wings
And the Beloved laughs
Wings form
I refuse to fly
I won't I won't I won't
I fall towards the water
Each time I wonder
If this time the Beloved will not shift
I hit the water
Safe again
Scales and tail
And I can breathe
And swim free
To the sea