why are the two so closely linked in my mind together? Whenever I sit down and ignore my fears of "what the hell weird shit is going to come out of my pencil now", I want to draw erotic pictures, nothing else is interesting. It's always females with big titties and sexual positions. And I hate the majority of porn so much, it's so demeaning to women (99.99%).
I don't even think about these kinds of things often. It's just when I begin to draw something, that's what comes out.
In fact, I have deliberately NOT drawn anything for years now, just to avoid seeing the pictures that come out of my pen/pencil.
But not drawing, not creating, not making art - makes me miserable. I was born to draw; and to paint. It's time to face my demons.