Sad and Lonely is
soce, the elemental wizard's first ever
music video. soce wrote, recorded and animated the video all by himself in his
bedroom. It's both a really
depressing and quite
funny Flash animation. Most rappers want to tell you how
difficult their lives were, how much of a
struggle it was to get to where they are now. soce tries to let you in on his
hardships as well, but he realizes that he's basically had an extremely
easy life, with everything fed to him on a
silver spoon.
Thus, soce doesn't rap about the
ghetto or selling
drugs. Instead, he raps about chatting on
message boards, doing
computer programming on
Wall Street, checking his
website visitor stats and other such
nerdy and
dorky things, and the underlying
meaningless in which it conveys. Here is a man who pretty much has it all, and yet he's still completely
unsatisfied with his life. He wants someone to
love, but he doesn't know where to begin searching. soce also touches on the
difficulties of being a
performer and the
pressures of needing to
draw a certain amount of
audience members in order to get
booked for future
shows. Many other performers should be able to relate to this and other aspects of the track.
The chorus goes, "I am so sad and lonely, except when I'm with
my friend Dave, but there is no
attraction between us, so I'm still on my own." soce is saying that even though he's down in the dumps right now, there are plenty of times when he's not singing this tune where he is very happy. The Dave in this song is one of soce's best friends
David Davidson, but it really just signifies any of his close friends. soce loves Dave very dearly, but the two are unable to provide each other with any type of
physical relationship, besides
hugs.
The last verse of Sad and Lonely is a huge departure from the first two verses. Whereas the first two tend to meander on about how soce is a generally
uncool person, in the third verse, soce attacks the listener directly with a rapid-fire account of how he is going to wait until the listener has passed away in order to go into his
grave and
rape his
corpse. It comes out like a classic
battle rap, but soce is
fighting the only battle he knows that he can win.. one where is opponent is already
dead. Apparently, he's so unnerved by his current
difficulties that this is the only way he can handle the situation.
To fully appreciate Sad and Lonely, you have to see soce perform it live in front of a
full crowd. Hearing everyone singing along during the chorus, laughing at how
pathetic soce makes himself out to be, the
uncomfortable silence as people realize what he's saying during the last verse, along with all of the
disgusting and detailed images he draws, and then the ultimate relief as he dives into the chorus at the very end, encouraging people to raise up
candles,
lighters,
cellphones and anything else that helps
brighten up the
darkness. If he's in a
good mood, soce will then sing the last refrain an octave up, holding the final note high enough to break glass, sometimes dramatically
collapsing to the floor in a
jumbled heap. For a different feel, soce also enjoys performing the track
accoustically, playing the background on the
piano instead of using the pre-recorded beat that runs in the music video.
Strangely enough, soce wrote this song during one of the happiest moments of his life. He was spending time with his family--his parents, his sister, her husband and their children--on
X-mas vacation. But I suppose that even as happiness exists within times of great sadness, then there may be sadness during times of great happiness as well.