I am testing fate here. I'm not ready to have a child and neither is she, but we can't fucking help it.

I'm an idiot. Over and over again.

Neither one of us can let go, but I don't care.

This is bad, I'm making the wrong decision, over and over. It's only a matter of time before fate takes hold.

There is something wrong with my head.

It's forbidden and we know it, but fuck it.