Our steps are tentative as we try to feel out our way.

We're trying to be friends and neither of us quite know how.

It isn't that we don't like each other, goodness knows, that's not a problem.

It isn't that we don't have things to talk about. We do.

It's that, a very short time ago, we were so much more than friends. And it isn't the feelings that have changed, it's our lives.

We have to find a balance. We have to find expectations that are realistic, to discover how much we can tell each other about our new lives before the information starts to hurt. Find out how much support it is reasonable to give, or to ask. Decide where we draw the line when we talk about feelings -- how we can convey 'I love you' without actually saying it.

It's strained. It's awkward.

We struggle for words, where we used to struggle to stop talking.

It's tempting to not even try, just to let it fade away. But... we are used to each other, part of each other, integral. Our conversations, the presence of the other has become ... needful. Without it, there is a hole.

So, we are trying to part without parting, to keep closeness, but at a distance. We are trying to be friends.