I've spent the past nine hours reading bland American history and reviewing physics for my two exams tomorrow, but I don't think I've absorbed any of it. I can't stop thinking about my recent ex-
SO, and the fact that I've actually SEEN
her a few times in the past two days doesn't help (we live in the same building, but she rarely leaves her room - sightings are uncommon).
I fear failing my history test. During Friday's lecture, my teacher discussed "they" and "them" for a full 40 minutes without specifying who they and them were. Some girl finally piped up... "Miss? None of us knows who the hell you're talking about." I nearly died from laughter. She said she was talking about the
Populists, most people thought she was discussing
Andrew Johnson. Needless to say, much confusion was cleared up - though not enough, that's a mild mistake compared to her usual lectures. I have read all there is to read, yet I still don't feel prepared.
Odds are, I'll fail the physics test too, but since that seems to be the thought of most everyone in the class, I'm not too worried (
bell curve! WHEEE!).
On a slightly brighter note,
UTD (the University of Texas at Dallas) has offered to pay my way fully from now through grad school (I'll be a junior at the end of this year) plus a few grand spending cash yearly. I can't really pass that up, unless I get accepted by
MIT, then I don't know what I'll do. All that, and all I can think about is how much it will suck, because she won't be there...
This won't be the first time I've been alone on Valentine's day (
Hallmark Holiday #1 I believe), but it's the first time that I don't understand why I will be...