I've been dreaming
off and on
ever since sunrise
I woke up late
from a dream of her
She was skiing and stopped to play checkers with me
I was late to work
because I sat at a stop sign for five minutes
dreaming I was still at home
eating breakfast with her
I zoned out at 10:30
dreaming of the first time I met her
and again at 11:12
dreaming of the last time I saw her
Then at lunchtime
I was stopped in mid-chew
by a dream of when I took her flowers
after she broke her leg
stepping in a gopher hole
I had another dream at 2:30
that we were in our 80s
surrounded by kids and grandkids
I almost hit a car on the way home
because I heard her voice whispering in my ear
I burned my dinner
while dreaming of the third time we kissed
After that, I
let my food get cold
while I dreamed of a wedding that never happened
And I was doing the dishes
when a nightmare of her death
left me icy cold for 15 minutes
Throughout the rest of the evening
I relived those moments when
almost on a whim
I decided to break up with her
and damned myself forever as God's Own Idiot
and now the phone rings
I answer and it's her
She picked up my number from an old friend
She lives only a few towns away
"Let's get together" she says
"I've missed you so much"
I'm dreaming again
I must be dreaming
I must be