To
you, who needs to hear this now - and you know who you are -
I love you. I always have. When we were
children crawling through the back hallways of
the church, or running wild through the woods around my house, or just generally making life
hell for our parents, you were my
best friend and I loved you.
You are a wonderful, precious person, and you deserve so much more than what you have. I understand the place you are in now, and I know how horrible it is. I have been there. I have tried to escape through the same means you are considering. But it won't work. There are those who love you who will not let you go - myself included. And you will hit rock-bottom much quicker if you try to escape this way. From where you are now, you have a chance to begin the climb out of the shadowy abyss without hitting the hard, jagged rocks at the bottom. And yes, I know it is hard. But it is the best and ultimately least painful thing you can do now.
I wish I could take it all away, and make everything better for you, but I can't. I can only be here for you, and let you know that I love you, and that I always will.