I dont know what has happened to me, my confidence has been gone since I moved to Indianapolis. I always had some pre installation jitters, but now I seem to think I cannot pull this off. Right now things are in the carrier's hands, a place I do not like to be. If their piece goes off without a hitch and the porting goes well, then we should be 85 percent good. I know in my head that I can do this, but after all the crap that has hit me in the last 2 years, my soul does not believe in me anymore.
In other items, I think about it a little less, but my problems are re-occuring just like I know they would. I am not saying I was wrong just yet, and my gut still quails at the thought of the alternative, so who knows, I do know that I have to be a better person than I have been. The clock is ticking