There was a birthday party last night, not many people were left standing straight. The guys had a sex talk fest. I don’t know how I feel about how he was kissing so many guys, feeling sick, dancing funny. I felt sick watching him. How do I know that the next time he gets like that and I’m not there that he won’t smoke his head off or kiss people. He hasn’t spoken to me all day. His behaviour, like, for sure, like, I know, I doubt, like, I know we’re gonna break up one day, I just know it, but I’d rather be in denial or just dream or hope that may be, he’ll grow up and change and not get that trashed, or at least not think of such behaviour as good or something to be proud of. I don’t know, I’m tired, I’ve only had 2hrs sleep, I don’t know what to do.