A difficult day, not because of the things that happened, but because of the things that didn't. I have not heared from any employment agent. I have applied for several positions. I know that I have been rejected for two previous applications.

I have seen all that there is too see in the Tate modern. My third trip there was today.

The way that the world works is that you are allowed to have time but not money, or money but not time. Right now I have time, and want to get back into a busy life where I don't have time ot think about myself, and can fill the few remaining hours with consumerism and websurfing.

I am not letting the surface crack, I am polite and friendly. Well mostly. It is not getting me down. I am not giving up, or even slowing down. Not yet.