melancholy \Mel"an*chol*y\, n.

1. Affected with or marked by depression of the spirits; gloom: "There is melancholy in the wind and sorrow in the grass." (Charles Kuralt)
2. Pensive meditation; serious thoughtfulness. "Hail, divinest Melancholy!" (Milton)

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