As I take time to ruminate on the year that was 2005 I’ve come to discover many things. On a personal level, there were way too many close calls and brushes with the grim reaper for comfort. I think not only about what I’ve put myself through but all those who might love and care about me in one way or another and what they’ve had to go through.
But then again, there were an awful lot of moments to be proud of. My kid remains a constant source of wonder and inspiration. Right now, she seems to be the fuel that feeds my fire. There was a gathering of old friends and a chance to make new ones.
I guess, at times, life is a pretty funny thing. You do some things that you can be awfully proud of as you meander through it. But then again, there are those times when you can’t believe some of the things you’ve pulled and what the hell was going through your mind when you did.
I wonder what makes those times, the times you did so good, so different from the times you’ve behaved in a way you’d rather not. It’s probably something very simple but when you break it down, most things are.
Whoever coined the phrase “the circle of life” was really on the ball.
A Quick Life
Yes, I’ve romped among the innocent
Because they weren’t hard to find
They were young and unsuspecting
They were willing and were kind
Yes, I've danced among the joyful
With a smile upon my face
When the sound of music filled the air
And where lovers would embrace
Yes, I’ve played among the playful
Our arms raised in victory
We were comrades then and remain comrades now
For all the world to see
But then, I’ve crawled among the guilty
And I’ve crouched and stooped so low
And I’ve told them things they needed to hear
And there are things they’ll never know
And then I’ve fallen over victims
And yes, I’ve made some of my own
In another time and another place
I see the winds of change have blown
Yes, I’ve struggled with my conscience
It’s that ever nagging thought
That pounds away inside my head
One day I’ll rue what I have wrought.
Yes, I’ll take them to my grave
All these things that I have done
The good, the bad, the ugly
The sorrow and the fun
Here’s hoping that 2006 smiles on us all.