Shot Down

i remember hoping i would cease to exist
looking down at the barren ground
and seeing my reflection
a sad rejection accepted
i drowned in pity and inhaled stinging water
she told the truth i needed to hear
i stood there, waiting for rain
as the spring breeze grazed my hair
something could be as miserable as me
inside my head, the downpour abused me
controlled me, and forced breathing
no matter how hard i tried, i couldn't stop
i heard laughing, but stood my ground
waiting to vanish
if i couldn't die, i would be invisible
waiting for her answer, she stayed away
and never spoke
a sad rejection accepted
i stood in the rain, and disappeared