What did you expect? (idea)

DEATH
the arms of Jesus. kingdom of heaven. 72 virgins. nirvana.
carbon. nitrogen. hydrogen. oxygen. almost exclusively.

STRANGER
laughter and trust. best sex in history. perfect family. perfect home.
glances and misunderstandings.

WORK
I will reach these goals. overcome these obstacles. earn this title. I will turn this place around.
I wasn't happy in the journey. I'm not happy at the destination.

GLORY
I've poured my heart into this. it will change their lives. I will be revered. I will be adored.
nobody noticed.

SHAME
they look down on me for this. they despise me. I will never be respected. I will never be accepted.
nobody noticed.

SILENCE
they are jealous. they are bitter. they are rejected. they are hateful.
they got over it.

TRAVEL
I will see these things. I will find these things. it will be different. I will be changed.
still living myself. just somewhere else.

TIME
new year's resolution. spring cleaning. dog days. autumn of your life. tomorrow.
patterns. scheduling. order. the convenience of illusion.

DEPRESSION
just a bad day week month months. just bad sleep. just bad diet. I'll help myself later.
illness. logic-defying self-perpetuating illness.

LIFE
the good with the bad. as it comes. one day at a time. it will be alright. you were meant to be here.
open to interpretation.

January or February, 2022