When did I lose my brave little soul?
Each time I fight but I've lost the whole
The future feels short, I don't plan ahead
I just stumble forward, my heart filled with dread.

When did I lose my brave little mind?
Cancer erodes me, small losses I find
add up, I am not the person today,
Whose mind once sang bravely as I rode away.

When did I lose my brave little heart?
I don't remember if I felt the start
These changes are quickening, slippery slope
I don't yet give up, but I've given up hope.

I've lost them, I miss them, I sense the the tears' toll,
When did I lose my brave little soul?




For Susan Chung
from a line from her poem
"When did I lose my brave little heart?"