My life fell out of my jacket last night.

Otherwise known as my checkbook, which was doubling as a wallet.

So now I have no ID, no cash (there was $280 enclosed), no checks, no phone numbers.

And it couldn't have come at a better time, because to go along with the fact that I have no ID, no cash, no checks and no phone numbers, I also have no job, no money to pay rent this coming month, no leads and no food.

I thought I previously had a firm grip on what it would take to push myself over the edge, but after this past week of bad luck -- my holding on, not cracking under all of this pressure -- maybe I was wrong.

Why am I trapped in this downward spiral of bad luck? It just keeps going and going.. If I dont get a job by the 15th, I will get evicted next month. That is if I make it to next month. I have no food.

I hate the dot com world. My last employer did this to me, stripped me of my dignity...

(I keep mentally reminding myself that ''I have no food'' over, and over...)