...That I think I really do
like him.
What's this...? The as-of-late "
Ice Queen" herself is falling for someone in more than just a
sexual manner? Yes, I'm
flirtatious; yes, I have many
crushes; yes, I tend to see
sex as just something to do more often than not (instead of something important and special)... but in terms of
relationships, etc., "cold bitch" mode sets in at the
first sign of anything serious. It seems that for the last six
months or so, I've been very good at distancing myself from actually returning feelings of
affection. I don't want to be hurt again-- that's happened too often-- and I don't want to hurt anyone anymore. I want a
clean start. Maybe I have that with him...? I like talking to him, I like the way he makes me feel, I like the way I'm
comfortable around him; he makes me want to break
all of my own rules. I'm still skittish... I will be for awhile, there's no helping that... but for once, someone has made me
smile, someone has made me
happy. Just thought I'd let him know...