I am back where you wanted me

an aberration
when I was sick
and human for a bit

but you don't want human

you want someone to admire
since you have given up
you tried to talk me into giving up
and I looked at you like you were insane
get out of my way
I am getting well
I am going back to work

play with your toys
with the past
with ideas
with languages
with bitterness
hoping for collapse
so that you can feel useful

instead of being useful

stay out of my way

you think I'm on a pedestal

I think I am working
and having a life
and living it