You told me once, in a hand-written
letter in response to something I couldn't remember, that you think my problem is that I feel
too much too fast.
OK. I'll
believe that.
But now what?
I remember
one night stands for weeks long after they're gone and
one month stands until my
heart fades away. I can't tear my mind from the boy I'll probably never see again, and
distract myself with thoughts of his kisses and don't know how to not feel
this much,
this fast.
I don't even know him. I'm not even sure I like him.
I'm doing it again and it
sucks.
So now what?
Knowing may be half the battle, but these are
emotions I don't control, no matter how much it might be a good idea if I did. I don't know how to, and so I
remember, and reminisce and I feel, both far too early and far too long, and I don't know what to do about it.