I'm on my last day off, before returning to work after my little brain salad surgery. I love not working. I was born to retire. It's a shame we have to wait so damn long.

I just caught a movie on HBO call Enthropy, I believe, starring Steven Dorff, which basically told the story of my life, well, a major part of it. He fell in love; one of those love at first sight kinda things..and so did she. Her name was Stella..but as usual, certain things drove them apart. They each tried to get back together at different times, and the timing was just wrong. And it never happened.

I had a friend who used to say, " I didn't know this was a timed event!" I love it..

Anyway, at the end of the movie, Dorff, talking to the camera, says, "Three things in life are true. You live, you die, and things change." And then he added, "Oh yea, there's a fourth; everyone has a Stella, and no one can ever take their place." I believe that to be true..It certainly is for me.

My Stella was a Dede..Many before and many since..But , no one has ever taken her place.