"I love you."

I've had three people say those words to me in a romantic context in my life. Every single time, I've doubted their sincerity for a while, then accepted it, as long as we were dating.

But after we broke up, I always wondered if they meant it. A product of low self-esteem, I'm sure, but that didn't mean that I just got over it.

I always wonder if people could say "I love you" because they thought that was what I wanted to hear. I wonder if they really know what love is. I wonder if I know what love is.

I wonder how real love is, and whether or not I can even do this anymore. Can I deal with it, or will I just give up and pull in again? I don't know.