It's been awhile since i've taken the time to
reflect on my thoughts. I float just outside of my brain directing my body with
impartial commands. I've come close to noding, i've had many reasons to. Yet I could not, the words had
no meaning.
Life seems to be a task which must be completed. Emotions appear,
confusion,
loneliness. These do not linger long in my concious mind. Everything is moving progressing towards the end. I've had to let go of it.
Emotional pain has become a constant
companion. I do not have enough energy to fight it anymore. My life seems to be progressing, yet i've not shed many of the
fears that hold me back. Without the pain to drive me and with no like minded
souls to join me on
my journey I back away, away from the crowd away from life.
If... no, never if. I must find a friendly soul,
uncorrupted,
caring and
infinitely unique. Will I find you? Will you accept me, am I
worthy? A million questions, a
million more
answers all of my own creation....
You must exist, you have to exist.... there is too much ugliness in the world, there must be another side.
When I speak of myself, "I", is so frequently used. But it is
all that comes to mind.
Empty inside,
alone inside, not enough of a soul left to be an "I",
join me,
love me...
take all that I have. what little is mine is yours.
guide me