Truman Show disorder is a psychological malady in which one suspects that the entire world is a farce put together by perhaps God for perhaps some sort of test.
To me, the most vivid image of this occurs in the Jim Carrey movie when a floodlight falls out of the sky, practically at Truman's feet. Truman sees it but can't put it anywhere in particular into his catalog of experience.
In my own life, events like this are becoming more and more frequent. E2 and the community built around it is the latest example of something falling from the sky at my feet, ready-made and seemingly designed for my personal edification(no other word will do) and pleasure.
Coupled with this is an almost complete inability to convey this phenomena to another living soul. In fact, the usual reaction is scorn and avoidance. As a result, Ive learned to go through life with the demeanor of a buffoon, even though I test somewhat higher.
If this level of self disclosure makes you uncomfortable, consider my position to be that of one standing on a vast, mysterious plain, turning in circles and asking "is anyone out there?"
Well? Is there?