Today was a day of
monotonous energy draining work that
seems so pointless now. In other words, a
normal day.
I
made an ass of myself last night i'm pretty sure all I know is a came to a
grave realisation and i'm still sort of in shock about the whole incident. It really made me think about my life. I came to realise that I was
becoming what i've always hated and I know I must change because its not right to be that way.
I made so many mistakes, but that's in the past and I must move on. I can only learn from the past, I cannot change it or modify it in anyway.
I lashed out at my
best friend. She's never been anything but honest with me and I took it all for not. I in effect became the
type of person I hate most in the world. I know now that I must
learn from my mistakes and not repeat them.
This is my last chance my own mind made it very clear to me that if I screw up this time I won't get another chance and i'll be forced to start over.
No more will I
carelessly toss around
apologies or
lose track of what's important to me.
I know who I want to be and
I know what I want to do with my life.
Thank you everyone who has helped me along the way.