the schizoid paradigm:
stir those thoughts around in your head until it all becomes one
"circular logic is not logic" - true enough
but it's the only way to answer some unanswerable questions
like if someone were to ask me "do you believe in God?"
and I said "yes, I accept that idea as part of my vocabulary"
it doesn't mean that they and I are talking about the same thing
god is a child inside with whom we can only speak through the spirit of life
god is an important set of keys dropped in the lake which we bend to scoop up before it sinks to the mire
god is the bully against whom you exacted your revenge and then felt pity
god is an art gallery trapped in the heart of a glacier that you can faintly glimpse in every rainbow
"god is whoever you perform for"
"god is a place you will live for the rest of your life"
(Yes of course there's an easy debate to be had on the value of information that can't be proven. How far down the rabbit hole do you really want to go here?)
god is like a kind of relief
the respite of a thaw or a breeze
you can hope, but you shouldn't rely on it
shouldn't expect it to always be there and to make a difference
you take what you can find of it
just like life itself
August, 2021