Beneath a blinding bright, full moon, you leaned toward me.
We were friends then so I was expecting a warm cheek nuzzle,
a "thanks for bringing me here, it's beautiful
you kissed me. You gave me your hot mouth and
your hope sparkled eyes
This was wrong, all wrong. Even the moon was wrong.
I wasn't ready for floodlit treachery.
I wasn't ready for the necessary lies.
So I stepped back
and looked at you. We didn't say anything. Then you started
to sob. My arms encircled your shuddering body; you were
retching misery. You
held me hard, as though a life were at stake, and I suppose it
Then I thought about the lies I had already told.
How I blessed you both. How
I helped you through your early crises.
How I was bested by my best friend.
Bitter, bitter regret like
a bloody stone lodged in my throat.
Then more tears, this time mine. You lifted my head, and held it with both
hands. What did you see in my leaking eyes?
Did you see the truth?
I would do this now, because of past love,
We kissed again, this time together. Hurried hands
frantically pulled at clothing, exposing heat to the cold air.
We both cried out together.