Norby

I was just thinking. Such a paradox my brain seems to be...at least I think...since I was only thinking. Knowing is so much more difficult. When you think you know it, you dont. If you know what you know, how do you know you're not only thinking it, or thinking that you know.
I used to know everything. But I soon learned that I only thought I did. All I can do now is think. I think...it's amazing what you know you know, but what you know is actually what you think you know, but you don't know it. I know it. Or do I merely think it? But if learning is knowing, and I don't know anything...perhaps I learned nothing at all.
Last month I knew I loved him. Now I only think I did. I know I think I did. Because I know that I would only think I knew...I think. Now I love someone else. At least I think I do. He says he loves me too and he knows it. Poetic his words may be, but I tell him doesn't know he loves me. He only thinks he does. I know he only thinks he does. Or I think he thinks he does. But since I don't know anything, he might as well know everything. He may know he loves someone else later just as I did. Maybe it's just me. I don't want to hurt him. I think I don't want to hurt him. I wish I knew that I wouldn't hurt him because I think it would hurt me too...thinking how I do. He asks, "do you love me? because I love you, I know I do."
I can't give him or anyone a straight answer anymore because I dont know anything. I only think. I wish I could stop thinking. ...and start knowing. No one really does know anything, but they don't know it-only I do. But it's a confidence booster when you take pride in knowing what you know. Is that why I have no confidence? Because I know I know nothing? Or do I think I know nothing? Maybe because I only think I know nothing, it could be that I do know something because I don't know it. I would like to tell you what I know but I will once I think of it. It's amazing what you'll know tomorrow. What do you know?