For the record of posterity, this was written at stupid o'clock about an hour after finding this site. Soon, my concerns listen below will be hopelessly irrelevent. But, this big bunch of worry, which I'm halfway through writing will remain for posterity. Oh yes!
Oh Lord, I expect I'm supposed to use HTML here. Well, apparently no one ever reads these things anyway. I do like paragraphs really.
You know, I came to this site because I googled "fear of rejection". That's pretty tragic, isn't it. Maybe once I've been here for longer, I'll challenge other users to find a more pitiful way of finding this site. I already have a suspicion that I'll lose.
The node I found said that this kind of thing happened all the time in a relationship, and to consider that if I found someone once, it'd happen again. But that didn't help. Because I'm not in one, and haven't been for ages. I am beginning to identify myself as "the one who is single." Maybe this is a bit too honest so early in my career on this site, but I reckon that a) this'll still be true in ten years or, b) it won't be true, and I can smile fondly that those sad days have passed.
This is probably enough writing by now.