Yep... I'm 19, and I'm probably about as stupid as I'll ever be in my life -- however, I can't guarantee it. Most likely, I'm getting less wise every day, and making worse decisions by the moment. That's why I'm going to school. To become a professional. You know what they say about those professionals -- "A professional is a person that learns more and more about less and less till he/she knows absolutely nothing about everything" Yeah, so that's me. Some dumb kid going to school in a godforsaken town called Cookeville, Tennessee. I'm really pessimistic, and heartbroken right now. I've succumb to one of those stupid situations in which the love I've got for someone won't work out... it did, but it won't -- not right now. I know... stupid. Lay it on me. CheersThis is now...
Amidst the awakening of the soul, the arrival of my rehabilitation of the crushing event that changed my life... I emerge a new person. It is true, the eyes of pain still sear into my heart on occasion -- but I live to see another day, and another write up on E2!
Life, she has become funny again. Perhaps I'm just a silly Big eyed Fish. Good days come, and invariably bad days pass... But as with everything... This will pass.
And today on this great day, I sit and I ponder the meaning of nothing. By nothing, I mean Everything... Everything2, even. Today, August 25, 2002, I reach level two. Thank-you TheBooBooKitty.
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