The feeling that I get as I read more and more about the
history and culture of
China and
Japan.
The history and acomplishment of these great
nations is something that I am rather envious of. Truly I am an
American, of such varied
ethnic background that I can not truly identify with just one (ethnicly I'm Italian,
Native American (Cherokee),
Jewish, Scottish, Irish, English and French, that's in order by "percentage"). I guess it's a
quest for some sort of cultural purity. "American" culture (or lack thereof) dissapoints me, and European culture is somewhat embarassing, and still no where near as ancient. I guess I could go the Italian route (percentage-wise I'm 25% Italian) and go on about the glory of Rome, but somehow I just seem to identify more with
Asian culture. I like the food, the
value system of these ancient cultures. Even the
women are more appealing to me.
It's not that I'm ashamed of who I am, or what I am, perhaps it's just a "grass is greener" syndrome. I just feel at times as though I was born in the wrong
hemisphere.