I’m nothing like you thought I was
I lied to you from the very beginning
you were convinced because I’m convincing
because why would I lie and because you are willing
to look in my eyes and see what isn’t
and never will be
it couldn’t be I don’t have it in me
what you see is what you put there
I learned the lines so I’d get the part
I only pretended to be what you thought
it’s all been an act and not of the heart,
just a fancy of mine,
it’s all been a lie—including that—that isn’t true,
and you’re nothing like I thought you were either
I really thought you were smarter—in fact,
you were so much smarter than me, I believed,
you’d make me become what I told you I was
and once you believed it I could too
but if you believed me how smart could you be
I’m nothing like what I told you I am
now you’re not you and neither am I
and I don’t think I’ll ever forgive you for that