thoughts followed by tears drenched in bliss
i needed to feel you, inside
i couldn't
i was lost and distant and trying
trying to find my way back
floating around in a sea of
mismatched thoughts and
wilting celery stalks
did you see me? i was waving
and then you found me (or i found you)
right there, beside the tree
the tree we met beneath
subconciously, reality fades to truth
knowing my thoughts before i do
it's creepy, crazy, intensely neat
watch me pretend that i could stop you
if i wanted to
it's funny but his apologies
they sounded
like lies
and it's odd, but his smile
looked much
like a scowl
it's frightening but
i see your
face
in my dreams at night
not his
(not anymore)
i've found security in your depth
did i dream
you
into existence?
i forget to breathe when you
say
"i love you"
because i believe it.
you've said things i wanted to hear once
things i thought i'd never hear again
i didn't want to..
it seems all i needed was you.
"he
took me by surprise with his words and his ways, and the sound of his
voice is with me always,
past the end of mortal days"
i
smile now because
i know, it's too late for him, it's too late to say he's
sorry
words slip past, through, around thoughts, i catch them in my paper cup and put them here for you