I miss you now, as I always have,
Though you confuse every part of me into thinking that you miss me too.
Blinking once, twice, tying bows in the blue
ribbon between my fingers,
And hold the phone against my shoulder with my cheek, smiling to hear her laugh.
My eyes are smiling, and she can’t see them, can’t see how my hair curls,
Can’t see how much my
soul overtakes my outward body…
I wish I’d drank on that
boat…just for once in my life, I wish I’d been bad.
I’m so very tired of making other people’s
dreams come true…
When is it time for my
dreams?
I sewed my own
dress for that
party…I made sure things were perfect…lovely
princess,
And why did I even bother, when it was all
sequins and faux
pearls there?
The water was perfect, though, and all I thought of was him and her
And
angel-less beings with nowhere to go…so much like myself.
Stop telling me to save the
world! I am no
goddess, no winged
seraphim with which
The
world may find
peace! I am
human…and I am in love…
And one day, as we all do, I will die, and I will leave you.
Yes, I will be gone, but on no uncertain terms...and
Will I miss you?