Last night I had an opportunity to chat with a friend of mine who
recently lost someone that was close to them. She died tragically young,
part of the conversation was about how people react to others dying and
what kind of coping strategies people use initially but then the topic
turned towards life and how people take for granted small yet huge
things like being able to walk on their own two feet and breathe air
that is not polluted while using the many online resources that are
available to them. My friend mentioned that another friend of his has a
brother who is autistic and battling cancer. At fourteen he's been
through three rounds of chemo, when we were at Children's Hospital we
were confident that my daughter would come home and optimistic about her
ability to make a full recovery despite hearing that her lab numbers
aren't dropping the way that they should.
During this conversation I was on Twitter. Someone I follow there is
going through shoulder rehab after an injury, we're friends on Facebook and I wish more people would have
this guy's mentality. The other day he made a comment about Some ECards
being another platform for people to complain and that really struck me
as insightful. Normally I think they're funny but now I can see that a
lot of them are negative in nature. For much of my life I've had notions
that I or other people can't do certain things. In reality, most people
can play baseball or write a book or learn to fly, they just aren't
willing to invest whatever it would take or make sacrifices to turn
their goal into an achievement. Few people start out as naturally gifted
and even those that are can refine and hone their skills to make
themselves better.
There are many things I can do and could be doing. Right now, I have
to figure out where my energies are going to be most fulfilling and
rewarding. Last year at this time, I was a physical and emotional wreck.
This year, I'm more physically fit and that has a lot to do with how I
feel about life in general. Yesterday, I was really upset until I went for a bike ride. I did half of my yoga video
and I didn't time it right so I couldn't finish it, but I learned
something from that - I need ways to relax. I need to find ways to have
fun and I want people in my life that I can share mutual interests with
which is why I think Twitter works so well for me. It can be frustrating
at times but it's also a great way to meet new people who have passions
similar to yours.
My dream was strange last night. An E2 member was part of it. For
some reason this person and I were traveling together, I had the
impression that we were teachers or educators of some sort but I'm not
really sure why I think that. We were in a room with these other women,
he left and then I was alone for a while. Something happened right
before we left, the dream scene changed and I didn't see him again after
that. The next thing I remember is being in a car that might have been
the one I actually drive. A guy was standing next to my window, I didn't
see him at first but I could see that his car was parked next to mine.
In real life this guy is really tall, he was in my dream too. He reached
through my window, our hands touched and he said something but I don't
know what it was. When I woke up, I remembered that part of the dream,
it made me feel secure and safe and internally warm. It probably isn't
trying to tell me anything but I wish I knew what I had done to conjure
up that scenario so I could hit that dream replay
button on evenings like the one I had last night.