I have felt your presence beside me as we grow old and watch the years
go by. I have felt you as my partner down the path towards the
end of our lives. We will always be more than friends if you let us. I don't
know if we will ever be each others primary but we will
be in love and eventually we will find a place where we can live within
each others grasp.
You asked me if I was beginning to figure out how you fit into my life.
I have sweetie. These are the glimpses I see. The form and character of
our binding is fluid, and unknown to me but I see its presence.
I taste its form.
And, this relationship, this romance, this falling in love with each
other, it is different than any other one of mine. I have fallen hard and
am holding myself back, to give you the space you need in your life, to
allow you the time it will take for you to find the place in your life for
me. I will wait, and smile, and occasionally cry, because this is no short
movement. I have come in between breaks and the orchestra has many
measures to go before intermission. But I don't mind; the conductor
is beautiful to watch, and the music has already grabbed my heartstrings
and pulled me into my seat.
I love you Deeahblita. I think I always
will.