A traditional indicator of
schizophrenia. Most people are familiar with the phenomenon of "
talking to oneself". Sometimes it's
vocalized as
mumbling. I do it automatically, silently, when I write, to test out phrasing and style before I
commit a thought. I talk to myself when I have a problem to solve, debating between
mindsets and approaches, and I
pray silently too. Talking to oneself is usually a
harmless eccentricity.
I recognize each different
voice as an expression of my own
psyche, even if the words are hurtful. It is just an
irrational leftover part of me grasping for
power, by emulating the hurtfulness of people who exercised power over me long ago. Schizophrenics cross the line into
pathology when they mistake their own uncontrolled thoughts for
external messages (e.g.
Son of Sam).
In my private internal
mythology, there are distinct voices for each of these "characters":