hi
I am new here, despite my longstanding on-again-off-again addiction to everything.
I realize that e2 is a thing of thought and opinion and experiences, not a therapy group. This day has been set aside to critique the chat as the primary social function of e2. All I can say about chat is that I shouldn't, at least most of the time. At times I feel as if I don't know if I'm being a douche or worse but really I can tell you that I know all too well. The idea of being social is alien to me right now as I am processing some grief that would likely be way less (and less) toxic had I become a conscientious contributor when I first began reading here. My personal project now is to accept fate and control my reaction(s) thereof. I chose this facet of the universe to seek alignment because I feel drawn to you, as if we had met before or pathed crosses irl or
in an other place or life or dream. Chances are that I'm dead
wrong on all accounts in which case you should maybe count your lucky stars. The past
can be a scary place.
All I want is to leave 98 senses for every two cents taken. I want the change more than chat.