listening to this song, lights off,
middle of the day, always makes me shiver. for the longest time
(6 months), i had the lyrics but never looked at them. one day, i actually tore myself apart from the intuition that told me this was amazing and read the
words myself.
and if you get too far inside
you'll only see my reflection
when i was younger, i would stay up late at night, turn off the lights and stare into a mirror until i felt my face fall away. it ended up looking like an old woman, lost and too tired even to die.. and i see that in me even now when i stare into my reflection--the years too impatient to wait for their time to ruin.
do not cry out or hit the alarm
we're friends till we die
i've kept silent too many times when i should've spoken. to make things remain unchanged, i've sacrificed truth.
It's always best when the light is off,
it's always better on the outside
to find escape, i go outside, in the dark, and sometimes i pretend there is no me...
that either way you turn I'll be there,
open up your skull, I'll be there
climbing up the walls.
but she's always there, waiting to ruin, disgust, and create fear.
and the screaming at the end.. what i hear inside.