Open/Closed
As I sit at the front step of life's opportunities, I feel this impending need to question the point. I'm not an, "asshole," I'm also not the type of person who stays up for 36 hours straight just to finish the last battle of halo 2 on-line while living in my mom’s house...However, I have never had a girlfriend...I'm not ugly, I have a decent body, am working out, but I've never had a girlfriend. I've shielded myself from some girls simply because I didn't feel that they were unintelligent, not that cute, etc, but the reasons were understandable. I consider myself to be a intelligent, but apathetic, sarcastic, but also caring person... that almost sounds indiscernible. Which is great for me, in a sense, because on a short note, I've probably had a relatively, "unstable/abnormal," life. I don't really feel the need to open myself up to some questionable slut who is just looking to go home to anyone but herself...but I would like to have someone...I'm highly selective but not really, in reality, I'd say I'm looking for the exact thing every other guy in America is - a cute, intelligent, funny girl who has a little enthusiasm for life...one who can laugh at my mistakes, but also laugh at herself...because in the end, this game of life is only open for so long, we have this moment to do whatever we want...You don't have to go home and sulk for your lack of extroverted nature or be sad that you haven't had a girlfriend/boyfriend in a couple of months. People just need to realize that 1) life is a joke...just don't take shit seriously...at all. So who cares if you failed a class, or didn't hook up with anyone tonight? The only real shit you should focus on, and I don't mean to be too pessimistic, but is yourself. Think of it this way, if you don't go home with that hot girl sitting over there - someone will, why not you? The endeavors of life are open for only so long...and the opportunities are closing