FYGPDDon't want a life of lies and pretense
Don't want to play at attack and defense
Just want my own life; I want to be free
So you can be you, and I can be me-Crass
This seems to be some kind of sick social trend in life. Do you think it's true that everyone wears
masks? You know what I
mean, a social
demeanor for the right situation; You can spit and hollar a literal
plethora of
vulgar insults when you're out drinkin' with your mates, but would you
dare behave in such a fashion around your mother? Now, I try be no means to be what you'd call a
consistent communicator, but I'm fuckin'
sick of playing certain
situations to boot because it's
expected of me.
I probably had first
isolated and
recognized this phenomonon somewhere around the
fifth grade, when my mother
smacked me for swearing.
But me and my friends do this all the time, and no one's getting smacked... I wondered to myself. Then you realize:
Of course! It's because mom expects me to behave that way around her! So all I have to do is be cool 'round mom...And I'm sure you can figure out the
rest of the tale. So, by highschool, we've all got these little
acts ingraved into our skulls. Act
friendly with your friends, act
desirable around those you
desire (or
not), act
intelligent when appropriate, act
otherwise when as
such. Then there's always those
formal demeanors. Your parents. Work.
Work!
UGHHHH!
I can offer no
closure for something so anchored into the psyche of
each and every one of us, but to say that would it really be any better if it were different? How would it be like if we could get away with treating our parents like fellow
curmudgeons?
busy busy busy...