I am lying in bed.
I have three cans. I need to let them go, but first I need to put something in them. I am grieving.
I put hope about playing music with B in the first can. I am letting that go.
I put hope about traveling with B in the second can. That too.
I struggle with the third can for a while. What do I want to let go?
I am at 51% trust. I think that is as good as we can get, unless...
I put hope about the other 49% in the third can.
I put them in the recycling bin.
I thought I was awake when I was thinking about this, until this morning. I only realize how odd it is this morning.
Let go, let go, let go.
2018.11.24 at 17:33 moeyz says recovering from spinal surgery, only allowed 20 minutes max at computer chair...or any chair. In hospital bed & wearing neck brace 24/7, tire easily. will email from cell end of next week, 2 Dr appts...of course there were complications :(
last message I got from her: 2019.01.20 at 14:30