Male masturbation is lame. I always feel fucked when I do it. And I have been trying to quit. I was able to go 2 years, 5 months without wanking. From January 2020 to May 2022. One of my resolutions this year is to quit for good. So far, I have been able to refrain.
The first time I wanked, I was 24. Before then, even though I knew about it, it never occurred to me to try it. Then I moved into a shared apartment and one of the housemates was this gay Indonesian boy who offered to give me a blowjob the first night we met. I turned him down because he is ugly. While I've had one gay encounter as a kid, it was just some smooching, the rest of my sexual experience has been straight. Maybe if the guy had been better looking, I might have agreed. Anyway, the guy told me about how often he masturbates. I decided to try it the next day and I really enjoyed it.
Despite enjoying it, I want to stop because as I said, I feel like a loser when I do it. And I lack self control. I have wanked 4 times in a day sometimes. That cannot be healthy.
So, fingers crossed that this is the year I finally stop the habit.