what does it mean when you
all of the sudden find
tears dripping off your
cheek, or you look down and find that there's a
wet spot on the
pillow where the
tears you've been
shedding without knowing it have
collected. we were looking into eachother's
eyes and they came,
BOY did they come. usually at least one of
stayed strong for the
benefit of the other,
so that neither one of us
breaks
down too
badly, but this time it was a
simultanious breakdown.
we had the best weekend. she drove an hour up from Boulder, and finally arrived about 6 on friday night. We were hoping to go climbing at the local rock gym, but an unfortunate incident (she was sparring in American Freestyle Tae Kwon Do and kicked someone a little too hard and screwed up her foot a good deal) forced us to stay in and watch Happy Gilmore, actually a very funny movie when you havn't seen it for a while. So we got a sixpack of Cerveza Sol, a few bottles of pepsi and a pizza from Papa John's with extra garlic sauce and had ourselves a night. It was very high qulaity. we were up till 4 in the morning. It was great.
but of course, even though neither of us wanted to admit that it would come, that she would have to leave at some point. she just left a few minutes ago and holy shit, i always forget how much it hurts when either one of us have to leave. i always forget that feeling of a piece of your heart being torn away from you. my favorite quote of all time is in a song called If Only by Goldfinger which pretty much sums it all up;
But for now I'll have to
wait another week
to see your face and all I want to say is
that I really miss you